Thursday, March 13, 2008

i hate myself.

naiinis talaga ako sa ugali ko. grabe. hindi ko alam kung ano nangyayari sa akin.

una nawala yung dati kong memory card na naglalaman ng napakaraming mga bagay.

bago nun nawala yung fone ko na may number na 09166719007.

tapos kagabi nawala ko ulit yung fone ko na may number na 09054654810.

kaya kung makatanggap kayo ng text mula sa mga number na iyan, huwag niyo na lang pansinin kasi hindi na ako yun. :/

salamat nga pala sa mga katok at batok na sumama kahapon. :D

he sucks

this is the LJ post of a guy named Hart Fisher.

This Lie's Been Bothering Me...
This little lie that Gerard (Garry to me) Way has cooked up, it's not very smart, and it makes me wonder why he told such an easy lie to disprove. Why tell a lie about a guy who prints up t-shirts at the biggest comic convention in America telling the largest publisher in the American comics industry, Marvel Comics, to suck his cock, when you know he's not going to let you slide? When the police came to my fucking HOUSE and told me I needed to get out of town that weekend, that I might get fucking shot in a clash between the KKK and a group of protesters from Milwaukee... and I threw a party instead?

Why would you think I'm going to lie down for your lies?

The most troubling side of this lie is the collusion of the comics industry at large. Boneyard Press was not a small time publisher that was a flavor of the month that got flushed after one year. We published regularly for over 13 years. Boneyard Press was a unique publishing house and held it's own place in the comics industry, one that has not been filled while I've been active in movies. I was listed two years in a fucking row on the Top One Hundred Most Important People In the Comics Industry, and that shit happened a couple years AFTER the Dahmer affair began.

So why was it so easy to pull one over on the public and hoodwink everyone in the comics world that good ol boy Gerard was doing his first published work at Dark Horse?

I'm not sure if your average comics fan has noticed, but my company's work, and the work of it's creators, has consistently been black listed from the comics price guides. Why don't you go find out how much Garry's first comic is worth. You know, On Raven's Wings #1 (april 1994) and #2 (september 1994) and good luck on finding that shit listed anywhere. Now go looking to see how many Bill the Bull comics are listed, you know, with Duncan Rouleau's first published work (see if that's listed in the guides kids). Go see if John Cassaday's first published work, a Bill the Bull story called "Justin", is listed anywhere in the guides. He worked for several years at Boneyard before he broke, he's been one helluva friend to me over the years, and he lists my work on his site, but you won't find it listed in the guides. How about those Dahmer comics. Any of them listed on there? How about John Lucas's early work for me, you find that listed anywhere? Flickering Flesh anyone?

I ever talk about the time that the people that publish the big price guide, Krause Publications, how some of their fine editorial staff called up my boss and tried to get me fired from my job back in the good old days? Gee, I ever mention that shit? I'm sure I've bitched about it. One of their big chiefs at the CBG actually had the nerve to call my fucking boss at work, an advertising agency, and try to get me fired because they didn't like me, nor did they like my work. See how long you last in a business that puts roadblocks like that up for you. See how you long you last when your advertising is pulled by publishers like Krause for POLITICAL reasons AFTER they'd cashed your check. How about that one?

Now I'm ranting... anger does that to a guy...

So did a big company like Dark Horse knowingly commit fraud on the public in their advertisements touting these books by Gerard as his first foray into comics, or were they unknowing dupes. How many kids bought this comic book, The Umbrella Academy, because it was the FIRST. It's a well known fact that the first issue of any new series is the best selling, or the first issue of a celebrity's FIRST comic ever published. You see where I'm going with this? Sales for a book like that are going to be much higher than for a an old comics pro coming back to the fold now that he's famous. You think Dark Horse had any part in this, I've already shown motive.

A fraud like this was a lot easier to perpetrate with my work and the work of my Boneyard Press radicals quietly kept out of the comics history books by the guardians of "good taste."

I would like to know if Dark Horse was part of this fraud. I know their editorial staff. Fuck, I knew everybody in the goddamned business when I was full time. Everyone. The entire editorial staff at Dark Horse had one of my Marvel Can Suck My Cock shirts, including one given to Frank Miller. I personally signed copies of Kill Image for the editorial staff at Marvel Comics one year but they weren't laughing the next year when I did the Kill Marvel book.

I'm fed up with this bullshit, and I'm coming clean with it very, very publicly this week. I have video proof that anyone else could find... You know, the kid I knew as Garry was a smart, sensitive teenager who was overly concerned about what other people thought of him. He worried way too much about his appearance and his image. I do not know why he is lying. I remember being very sincere in my pride in his work for Boneyard Press. You can't tell me he didn't do store signings with all of his buddies at the local comic book store. Every kid's book I ever published, they all did it, and when I first got published I couldn't wait to do a signing either. So why did all those folks at the stores and where he grew up, why are they all lying too? A lie by omission is still a lie.

The part I'm most sick of... I'm not going to let my fans, my readers, nor the people that worked so hard on these books be cheated out of their due... I'm not going to let any motherfucker call my guys a pack of liars, not an anonymous stranger and not some rock star who forgot who his first fans were. A fucking rock star who forgot just who was in his corner and encouraging him when NO ONE else was, when he was just another fat kid with a bowl haircut who got pushed around at school, who was building you up then Garry? Who went on the record and pumped you up in print for the world to see? Who was that guy on the other end of that phone when you needed him?

Why'd you do me like that Garry?

Why'd you do the Boneyard Crew who fought for you?

Tell your fans why you lied to them.